Things I didn't know before Noam

Things I know now, that I didn't realize before Noam's arrival:

That I still, after her arrival, can't wear my "normal" clothes. This as I still look like I'm pregnant, now with a belly the size of six or seven months in to pregnancy. Don't know if it's common, or if it has something to do with me having a cesarian and therefor have had my stomach muscles cut off.

That my boobs has grown enormous. Figured they would get big, but not that they would look like if they're about to burst.

That I'm producing so much milk and that it flows without control as soon as Noam starts crying. Sometimes even without crying. Sometimes I get a shower in my own breast milk on the way from bed to the shower. Hope it's good for the skin.

That it doesn't matter how early I go to bed at night, or how long I stay in bed in the morning, I've still never gotten enough sleep. Probably because I sleep "on the edge" waking up from every little sound from Noam.

That I love looking at Noam having a crap, as she then gets this gorgeous smile.

That I love changing diapers on Noam, as she's then wide awake, studying me, which is not that often at the moment.

That my heart aches as soon as Noam is not in the same room as I. Or even, when she's in the same room but in someone else's arms.

That she's the most wonderful and beautiful thing I have ever seen!